Goodbye?

What does it mean to say a final goodbye? Or that you are walking away for the last time? When I hear these two statements I think that I am never going to hear from a certain person again. You might have guessed by now that my ex is at it again. I wish that I would have saved all the crazy IM's that she sent me...I am sure that all of you would have gotten a chuckle out of them as well. They were somewhere along the lines of everything that ever reminded her of me was getting thrown out in a trash can at a gas station... ummm ok. It was all very random but the conclusion to all this was that I am wretched and I play games. Normally I would be glad at the news that she has washed her hands of me for the last time but I am sure that this is not the last time that I will hear from her...

With the crazy IM's I started thinking about the past... Sometimes I like to sit back and look at my life now compared to what my life was like then. I never knew that life could be so simple and easy yet exciting. For years my life was filled with drama and I am sure looking at it now I was part of the reason for the drama. I guess that you could say that I thrived off of it that the drama kept me going. Maybe it was time to grow up because I have no idea how I allowed myself to partake in any of that nonsense. I am now 25...almost done with school... (October)...own my own house...and will be getting married in a few short months... A year ago I would have never guessed that I would have been this well put together. I have to give credit where credit is due and I have to say that PufferFish has really helped in this department and for that I thank her!!